bury the past™: 02/01/2008

Good morning, Kaneohe...

Are individually wrapped prunes...

All that convenient?

Lucky to live Hawaii...

What a truly spectacular resturaunt...

You asked me why...

and I think I've figured it out.

You asked me why I told you those things. Why I said that I had missed you. After 11 years of being together, and one year of being apart. You asked me why I would say that.

I stumbled over my words, tears welling in my eyes. I wanted someone to talk to, someone who I thought would understand the emotions. I wanted to know that someone out there was having as hard a time quitting me as I was having quitting you. I wanted to know that you were still there to confide in, that I could still confess to.

But I guess you're not.

"What did you think would happen, I'd just go back out with you?"

You always were pretty good at making feel pathetic. I guess I shouldn't have been surprised this time. Thanks for that final kick while I was down, I guess I needed that. I needed to know that now, regardless of everything else that has happened, I am alone.

I'm sorry if you think that I was manipulative and that I took advantage of you all those years. I'm sorry if you think it was all a waste. I'm sorry, I guess, is all I can say.

Good bye.